my mom is a slut
she says she loves someone
and then i catch her in bed
with someone who she doesnt love
and she has a boyfriend

and it was really sick catching her fucking
i think it made me like 10 times gayer.

heaven knows im not alright
someone take this baggage of my hands,
this happyness i crave, ive seenken in to a lower level
aviod my quitness.
i dont know, i guess i cried. when i heard the word goodbye to day in a song.
its funny how deep i hide all my feelings.
i lock them away, and i try to become stronger, to the point i let those fillings hurt me
in the long run.
i decided i dont make choices anymore.
no more choices jonny,
im going to live freely
even if i had to start today
my love it will recreate.
in the past we fall, i fall with isaac.
i thought i loved him.
the thruth is
i really do.
Ive heard if you look at me, you can see another side of me
a deep side, full of secrets, only for jonny to know,
& that no one will understand me completley , because im scared of what they will think.
yes i agree friend, who wouldnt let me borrow your jacket
i am infact a person with many inner thoughts i dont share
i cant share them , the way people think i can.
well as for today, i love a man, named isaac.
christmas break has been, full of lies.
thanks to me.
im sorry

I havent got any christmass presents for my family
nor my friend that i completely love.
i hate breaking up, god knows it hurts, it makes me dissapear
i want to stop disseapearing, i want something more than what i have right now,
these presents i have to get, i have no money for.
but ill be clever enough to use a little of the rents money to come across these gifts.
i have no idea what to get them, ill get creative about it when im out,
I usually get gifts they would not have a clue that i would pick those things out.

Im leaving the 27th
Im admit im scared
I hate leaving my home.
Im visiting donny. (my bestfriend) i miss u